YOU RESPECT ME - all the more so that I want to deserve that.

I just want to thank you.

I know I’m not exactly there yet - to fall in love and be with you. But hang on a little longer if you feel I’m worth the wait.

You deserve to be thanked for waiting without asking… More than that, you deserve to know why it still isn’t our time.

I’ve just been dedicating time for my heart to love me. I was so burned out and jumping into another relationship right away like I’ve always used to won’t help. No one deserves that. I want to love myself first right now, and I’m glad you’re the one who made me understand that. I’m not saying it’s your fault we’re still not together. What I’m saying is that if I’m ever going to be with you, I want to be ready for it. I want US to be special. I want us to be unlike any other US-es I’ve had. You’ve treated me the way any woman would want to be treated.

YOU SEE ME THE WAY I WANT TO BE SEEN.

YOU LOOK AT ME THE WAY NO ONE DOES.

I FEEL YOU LIKE I’VE NEVER FELT ANYONE.

YOU CARE ABOUT ME LIKE NO ONE ELSE NEEDS YOUR CARE.

Most of all, YOU RESPECT ME - all the more so that I want to deserve that. That’s why I changed - because YOU HAPPENED. At the right time. At the right place. For the right reasons.

If we ever end up together, I would thank God for the rest of my life. If we don’t, I’d still be happy because you’ve been in my life… and like you said, no matter what happens, you’d still be there.

Let’s leave everything to fate and the gods of love. Fate is what brought you here, and I know it’s gonna be US if it’s gonna be US.

Thank you.<3

F.E.M.

I’m worried my spirit might have already been broken. I feel it’s so easy for me now to lie down, fall asleep, and forget to ever wake up. I feel so tired. I feel so weary. I feel the need to eternally forget everything I’ve had and known and just start all over somewhere no one knows who I am. I don’t need a clean slate adorned by doubting souls. I need a new life.

INTELLIGENCE is knowing a sign says “one-way”. WISDOM is looking both ways anyway.

I can ask for more… but what for?

I feel like who I am right now is the best version of me. I’ve been so good. It’s still me. Only better.

I rarely even think of getting even. That’s a first. My middlename used to be revenge, and my motto used to be: Don’t get mad. Get even. And, damn, did I fucking DELIVER. My philosophy then? You’re smart when you think before you act, but you’re smarter when you figure out a way to not suffer the consequences.

I was intelligent ‘cause I can read a sign which says “ONE-WAY”. But I could’ve done better and should’ve had the wisdom to look both ways anyway.

So much better now. I’m at the prime of my life.ü

It’s better to look at the sky than live there. Such an empty place.

—Holly Golightly, Breakfast at Tiffany’s

A girl can’t read that sort of thing without her lipstick

—Holly Golightly, Breakfast at Tiffany’s

He’s all right, I suppose, if you like dark, handsome, rich-looking men with passionate natures and too many teeth.

—Paul Varjak to Holly Golightly

Paul Varjak: I love you.
Holly Golightly: So what?
Paul Varjak: So what? So plenty! I love you, you belong to me!
Holly Golightly: No. People don't belong to people. I'll never let anybody put me in a cage.
Paul Varjak: I don't want to put you in a cage, I want to love you!

It should take you exactly four seconds to cross from here to that door. I’ll give you two.

—Holly Golightly, Breakfast at Tiffany’s

Excitement... This made my day! Hahaha!

ME: OMG, I'm sooo excited!!! Hahahaha!!!
JAMIE: Me, too!!! Hahahahaha!!! Text me, please! I hope you make it!!!
JAMIE: Yes, I'll make it! Hahahaha!!! For sure!!
ME: What?
JAMIE: Oh. I thought it was you who typed "I hope you make it." So I replied... to myself. I'm so preoccupied.

Last working day for the week. Yeahh baby!

I think I’m gonna have to shop for dancing shoes - I realized that last night when I had to wear my six inch platform peepers at a ballroom party.

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY